Hmmz this sounds familiar to me, and it is probably something many people who are into personal development experience.
I am keeping myself busy with personal development; I read lots of stuff about it, talk about it, think about it, write things down, and, tell myself to live that way.
So for example I've learned that I should observe my emotions as they happen, not judge them nor live them, but just to observe the emotions/behavior. This would help you let go of the egoic mind and get more in touch with your inner self. But recently I've had some moods where I was completely taken over by my ego, I got annoyed, I got angry, I got jealous, and I let my actions respond to that. (no, no-one got hurt
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So I told myself to observe my emotions and not be led by them, but eventually I let it happen anyway.
I guess it just takes time, a convinced mind and some support to make your words into actions.