[Beloved]

I wasn't sure where to put this, but seeing as it's to do with my spiritual growth I figured here would be fine.

Over the past year I started reading books on spiritual growth, Angels, psychic growth etc and have noted a difference in my dreams. Over many many years I've had repetitive dreams which are always the same but my age changes.

Not long after starting this journey, I had one of those dreams. In the dream I was always instructed not to wake a man sleeping in the next room as he would be very angry at me, I would be instructed to work quietly, if I didn't finish my work he would be angry with me. In the latest version of this dream, instead of working I mucked around. When I heard the man waking I went outside worried he would be angry. While was out there he came out, he was gorgeous and smiled at everyone he passed until he passed by me, he frowned and looked upset. So I went to ask him why. He told me that for all these years he had been waiting for me to wake him up and everytime he would be told by the others that I refused to wake him. Which of course upset him. I went out to my car and came back with a gift I had been carrying around for him, when I gave it to him he looked at me and said "you really do care". I think it was something to do with my psychic ability, that it was being kept asleep by my fears and that I had finally woken it up.

Last night I had another repetitive dream, again one I've had for years. In it I go to a large house or possibly it's a hotel, it's amongst fields on the top of a hill. The inside of the place is very impressive, but it's strange because I can't really describe it even though I've seen it many times. It's haunted and there is an evil demonlike thing that is after me, it captures the others who are with me, usually turning them to it's side. In last night's dream it gets my husband. I remember looking down from the upper floor, part of the floor is open, to the lower floor and seeing it, my husband laying on the floor and another person standing there. Usually I run. telling others to hide, hiding while I try to work out what to do, I always wake just before it gets me. But last night I took it into my own hands, instead of running I decided to go down to confront it. I was expecting a fight, I calmly spoke to it and told it that it had to go with the Angels to the light where it would be forgiven. It looked at me before turning and going with the Angels. I woke up feeling great, usually I spend all day racking my brain over what I could have done in this dream, finally I did it right.

It proves to me that what I am doing now is right, even though it doesn't go along with my Christen upbringing and that it's even seeping into my subconcious. I've always known that there was something more than the Church said there was but guilt held me back. The guilt is being eroded away, it's taken time but it's working.