There is this huge space that I don't know how to fill.
I am realising that my eating disorer served to occupy most of my time. So now I have all this mental space and emotional space and time!!!
Its scary. I just keep telling myself its okay, its just space. I need to experience the space.
I have made a big effort to stop spending so much time people pleasing, it also gives me alot of time.
So I am trying to channel this extra time productively or just sit with the uncomfortable feelings but I am just feeling a bit lost. I am trying to think of something to do, cleaning or anything. But I know it will pass. Soon I will I will be walking on solid ground again. I'm just transitioning and thats okay.