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Old 05-14-2007, 06:32 AM   #59 (permalink)
medaille
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Default Here's how I think

I'm fairly consistently in the 140-150 range on most online IQ tests. I just got my first mechanical engineering job out of college. The thing that differentiated me from most of my peers (who were also high IQs) is that both halves of my brain are strong and work together well. I've always loved being creative and being using my intellect to create things. Alot of my friends are very intelligent liberal arts types who think in a very language based way, and it's obvious when we talk that I don't think like them and that my thinking is much more visual and much less structural.

I find that I spend a lot of time "in my mind" rather than in "reality." One of the results of this has been a degradation of my social skills, as when everyone else is practicing them, I am often in my own world and don't get the practice. I don't always know the answer to a problem, but I'm very very rarely wrong as I almost always know what I know and what I don't know. I never have to use willpower about thinking things. They come very naturally. Usually I just let things stew around until the answers come by themselves. If I'm not getting an answer that I feel I can trust, then I usually try to absorb new information via reading or whatever until my brain incorporates it into my worldview and thus into my answer. I can definitely feel the distinction between my conscious self and my unconscious self. I am very conscious of when my unconscious is doing work and when I am letting it go in the wrong direction.

I feel like life is some sort of virtual reality, where I can use my consciousness whenever I feel like it to make changes, but most of the time my unconscious makes the choices and my conscious thinks about those choices. My periods of growth happen when I use my conscious to reprogram my unconscious, but I also experience slow growth while unconscious as I am good at absorbing information.

I notice that my way of thinking is definitely different than others, because when I talk to average people (for lack of a better term) the way we speak to each other is different and its obvious to both of us. I think in a very 3rd person perspective. I am primarily an observer by nature. I am in a period where I am having to train myself to be an actor rather than merely an observer. Being in school was very good at reinforcing me being in "observer" mode rather than "actor" mode.

I feel like I get the rules of life to a certain extent, but I'm not very "skilled" at taking advantage of them yet (again observer vs actor).

The more I learn, the more I become convinced that everything is truth. I try to find the truth in what people say that I can apply to my own perspective. I often debate with people for the sake of the challenge, even though I see truth in both sides. I'm not always good at verbalizing what I think in terms of what the other person knows and can hear clearly.

I am very conscious during social interactions, but I am trying to put it more on autopilot. People often comment about how observant and analytical I am in real time, but more often people just notice that I am different. I am best when I stop thinking and focus more on what I want and just let it come.

Sometimes I am very natural, and at those times I feel most at peace. I cannot control when I feel natural though, but there is a correlation between how often I'm natural (or in flow) and how much I practice those types of situations.

Another result of being aware of what I know and don't know is that I often declare what's true for me, and say "I think ...such and such" when I speak to others about what's True in the objective sense, because I am aware of when it's less likely to be true for them. Most people don't make the distinction when I talk like that, they just percieve the inherent weakness of using "I think..." rather than realizing that I am talking about my truths and not Truth.

Despite being what I would consider at a less than optimal social ability, I find that like-minded people congregate around me and I very rarely get stuck in communities of people that clash directly with me, so I always have people that get part of me. Very rarely do I find people that actually get me to a large extent.

I find that I am good at listening and can put myself in others shoes well. I think this is a result of being creative.

I make order out of chaos. I find solutions to problems. I don't fit stuff into structures. I don't have a method of solving problems. All limitations are merely constraints in which my creativity can work.

Creativity is my lifeblood and my essence.
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