[kafaria]

well guys, its good to finally meet you. here is my dilemma. how does one handle mortal fear for loved ones? you see i live in an african country where the state of peace is never guaranteed. there is always a threat of war ( civil and other wise). more than that, there is always the threat from your own governmetn as well. i dont fear death for myself, i have been there and back, but for my family should a war errupt... how do i justify the death of anyone of my families, of my friends and country men... and if i die how do i justify my early demise without having fulfilled what i know to be my purpose in life? how does one handle the responsibility of subjective reality when the reality i percieve aint so thrilling? is it my responsibility that i witness such pain arround me constantly? and if i choose to live in that corner of myself that never dies and is never disturbed and took things as they come, does that make me a reckless person who ignored the signs and didnt not take proper measures to ensure the safety of myself and others? hummm heheeh its funny, as i write these qusetions to you, i know that the answer lies within me, i think i just better meditate. but it would be interesting to hear what you guys think about this
thanks