I do know that at the place I am now internally, in respect to where I have been in and throughout my life,..... I'm sort of conducting an experiment of directing or willing where I want to end up.
So far some things that seemed very off-key in realizing some of my ultimate goals are on the horizon. Thay don't yet appear to be lesson oriented, or unsurmountable challenges....but thay are very out of character opportunities.
I don't have fear related in utilizing them, rather it is as if I am taking something of myself that is very valuable, as a trade-off for what will be gained by engaging the opportunities.
That is a first for me.