| | Separating emotions and meal plans
I am now fully committed to following my meal plan. I have let go of the belief that my emotions control my eating. I as a conscious human being, choose to eat according to my meal plan.
I choose to deal with my emotions more effectively using alternative strategies. I am tired of mixing the two and ending up with a huge mess.
A was told according to NLP practises, I don't HAVE an eating disorder, I DO an eating disorder. I liked that idea, because I can choose not to engage. I see it as a relationship on some level and a habbit on another.
I have been building healthy exersize into my life. I was seeing a personal trainer three times a week for a year and a half. Much to his frustration and mine, I kept losing weight and putting it on again. I would panic and binge during high stress periods. SO instead of trying to force the weight off, I am allowing my body to return to our natural point peacefully.
I have been conserving my energy as I notice I have a lower tolerance for other people at the moment. All my energy is focused inwards. I am observing my people pleasing behaviors and trying to let go. I am becoming much more driven and results focused than I was before. I feel like I am waking up from a fog and I have all this drive pumping through me. I feel content with who I am yet driven to achieve more and realise my full potential.