Thanks Marinik.
I love that quote. I sort of feel like that at the moment, I know that I know the end goal but Im just focused on the little stuff at the moment.
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Dressing up for my sisters birthday party. I helped her create her costume and we ended up having a total blast cutting up a cheap dress and turning into a masterpiece. Marc Jacobs would totally hire us.
None of my usual pre party anxiety about what to wear for days before hand, I just tried on a dress and thought "yup, I'll wear that." Done. Its a great feeling.
My body is returning to its natural weight. I'm not sure what thats going to be. I have been overiding my natural weight for the last 8 years or so it will be a lovely suprise to find out. I'm not scared because I was very healthy before all of this and I am treating my body with loving kindness. I'm trying to feed it properly and work with it. No pressue tactics or lose weight NOW. Its effortless. I just follow my program and go about life.
I still have moments where I want to revert back to old behaviors. Its hard but it gets easier everytime. Eventually it becomes automatic. My taste buds are changing, I am craving lots of protien and salads and less fruit. (I used to over eat on fruit and avoid everything else). Its interesting to see what my body wants, its not usually the highest calorie, most promoted junk food either. Its healthy nourishing food. Lol just what Danas told me a few months ago...
Lol along with all my treatment team, turns out thier right. Its really nice getting in touch with my body like this, I feel like I am feeling my needs and wants rather than thinking and guessing them based on a certain end goal.