Hi John, and welcome to the forums!
It's funny, that even your post itself is worded very passively.
You might want to consider adjusting your thinking and your language, and projecting those thoughts out into physical reality, the way a baby learns to walk by first having an image of what it wants to do, and then projecting that image out and following it.
What, specifically, would totally light you up and have you loving your life if you were to
do it right now? What reality would you like to
step into, easily and effortlessly? What would you be feeling, seeing, hearing, smelling, and tasting? What would your body be doing as you
glide powerfully through space?