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Originally Posted by Maguru  Thanks for your response and I am interested in your experience if you wish to share it.
I am a bit shocked to read my previous post in 2007. Good god, where has the time gone and I still feel the same. The dark night has been many years now. The last few days has seen my hopes and dreams totally trashed, the one's I have been hanging on to for years. Reality took their place. A harsh reality that I have to accept.
Got nothing now. Nothing to look forward to, nothing I desire, no-one to love.
No close friends or family. Suddenly very very tired of life. If there is another side to this then I can't see it. I cannot reconcile with my life. That was one huge illusion I lived under. It's been terribly hard to break through this. I wish I hadn't but again the truth is the truth and it is supposed to set you free. 
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Maguru I am sorry to hear that you are feeling this way.
I too, have just awoken from a state that was like a nightmare, only today I had given up laid in bed, screaming for an end to this pain and even my partner reflected how bad I felt.
It lasted for weeks this one and it caught me unawares, and today when I finally broke out, showered and came to my store and opened it, it was as if I had just awoken from a bad dream. Nothing seems real right now, and I am shocked by how far I had been pulled under in this one. I lost all sense of time and sensibility.
I know i will find my way back to God and become stronger, I am still reeling in the shock of its depths, I didn't think I would make it outta this one for a time.
However, here I am, and I will flourish and thrive as you will too my friend.
There has to be light at the end of the tunnel, or we would all be lost.
Peace and love to all as always.