Hey Colfax,
I think it's great and courageous that you reach out and actively get advice. I've been through a verbally abusive relationship in the past, been through depression, and took my time to get into a much better state.
I read that you already feel better about the distance between you and that girl, and that you want to move to an even greater distance now, and that you wonder how you can achieve that goal when you have the same social circle and work for the same place.
I can understand that you feel that there's something wrong with you... in fact, I have felt this way so often in my life, and just when I was about to achieve happiness and have a good and stable, happy inner state, there was this tiny worry about heading back, and sometimes I even managed to go back a few steps, just to reassure myself that I could pull myself out of depression again and be even more happy, relaxed and joyful with every single time.
So perhaps you can tell me now, how will it feel to have achieved this state, when you realize that you have all the distance you need within yourself, that you are a perfect being headed exactly the direction you want? How will it feel to have the social circle you choose, work for the place you want to work for, and move on to a new relationship that's really suiting you, supporting you and providing you with all that love that you have inside?
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