Jhog, I have social anxiety and I've experienced episodes where I feel like I can't talk... Sometimes I'm scared to try because I don't know how it's going to sound when it comes out, or if anything is even going to come out. And when possible, if I'm feeling like that I just nod rather than speak.
I was at some service window taking care of something important at school,.. nervous the whole time,... and the last thing I tried to say was inaudible...
It's like my throat muscles are tense and closing up.... And I have to force the words out, but I don't want to have to try so hard to speak because if it's not just going to come out naturally, it's bound to sound "effed" up.... And I feel like I won't be able to control the volume of my voice... I don't want to not force the air out enough so that it doesn't make audible words with my throat being all tight and stuff,.... and I don't want to try to force it out wit mad effort to get past the inaudibleness cuz I can't tell how much air pressure I need to apply and I don't wanna jus' bark out words, it'd be like "oohhhhh sh*******".... I even have a "nervous voice"... it's higher than when I'm talking to, say, my mom,.. in comfort ...... Guys like it tho... but sometimes it gets bad.... Sometimes my vocal chords actually hurt.... And then I feel short on breath too....
Maybe you have social anxiety...
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