To answer your first question sandra, it does seem now looking at it, that I have had this irrational fear about painting bringing on the depression again...when you're right, it doesn't have to mean that it will cause me to spiral again. It was over 10 years ago now, and the times when I have painted have made me feel great lately, not sad.
Originally Posted by ssandra
Just wanted to offer you a different point of view..
The fact that you were painting while you were clinically depressed made you associate painting with being sad. However, what if those to were just coincidences? That you happened to be sad while painting, and painting itself is not what was making you sad?
Just a question... I know right now you have a part time job... why are you jumping through all these hoops now, instead of dedicating your spare time to painting? Why wanting to learn teaching English if Painting makes you happy? Why live in Asia, if painting makes you happy? Why are you not painting if that is what makes you happy?