[Jaiysun4]

Good luck. I am sure that if you keep going and have faith then meaningful things will happen for you.

Sorry to operate on the other side of the coin but I would say you are being unfair to yourself by expecting too much. This could be in terms of not having enough patience, or by wanting something that is unlikely or impossible to occur if you ever ask for definitive proof.

You could go the other way and say - "it is good to believe something only when i see evidence." Or hold a lack of evidence as evidence to the contrary.

But yeh, if you want a magical experience of life you need to trust more, and drop the barriers for evidence. Take a little less as evidence, take anything as evidence! Convince yourself it is true first then go out, and this will happen. This is what the "have faith first" bit is all about. You dont want to think logically and weigh things up, you want to believe something for the sheer hell of it and see what happens, and ignore the evidence to the contrary. This can be explained by the density of the physical world and your imperfect manifestation skills.