hi lifefirst..
herez my take on whatz happening.. i have often seen things from the other side.. ie. i would cram in over 5 days and sit at top of my course compared to ppl who would attend uni everyday..study a bit everyday..and often i would get the "how do you do it ? " ..the reason i think is because in those 5 days .. i have an intense desire to get there.. ( conversely..i find without this pressure.. i drift thru life ..and about 5 days before the exam..i know absolutely nothing ...and thus my thread: potential but no self-discipline)
i feel that if i were in your position..i would ask myself some hard questions..
1. why am i studying ? what am i aiming for ?
2. am i in danger of sacrificing my quality of life for grades ?..not giving my brain a rest ..i strongly believe over-exposure to work and anything else can turn u off it .. a good example .. at uni .. i wouldnt attend everyday.. i would just attend the important lectures.. as a result .. whenever i did attend..i would pay 100% attention..and i would retain a crystal clear picture of what happened .. as opposed to people who would be sitting in every single lecture ..BUT NOT REALLY BEING THERE
my opinion..is try to take a break.. really work out what it is you want to do.. is this a subject that you enjoy.. ? and then understand the work.. pretend you are explaining it to someone else.. look away from the book..
at the end of the day.. if you have long-term anxiety from studying..and it is not adding to your happiness.. then you should look at why you are pushing yourself.. i know this forum is about succeeding and self-discipline..but at the end of the day..it is all a stepping stone for self-realisation..and happiness
hope that helps in someway
skannie