I wish I could say the same.....I want to congratulate you on getting all As. But reading stuff like this really gets me depressed in a way. Because I am just the opposite. Maybe you can give me some advice?
I study pretty much 24/7, I don't really do anything else and I cannot get good grades for the love of me. I don't even know what it feels like to get good straight As...or even As and Bs. I have absolutely no clue. I'm always at the library until 12:00 in the evening, I go home and study more until 3 or 4(it's what I'm doing right now actually). And I get up the next morning around like 8 and pretty much forget 90% of what I just studied the day before. And I have to do the same thing all over again.
I don't think the word "depressed" can describe me right now. It's beyond that, I have pretty much lost it. I don't care much about anything else anymore. I rarely sleep, eat. By how much I study, I should be getting straight As...but I don't. I don't know how you can study so little and get such good grades. You must have an awesome. I have read Steve's articles, I do try to apply some of the things he says like timeboxing, but the thing is I don't allow myself to stop. When I read my textbook/notes and I can't understand it, I would spent the entire night trying to understand one equation or else it would drive me insane.
In the beginning towards the middle of the semester, I would get up early on weekdays and go exercise. And I would read something positive before I went to sleep....but I don't know what went wrong. I think it was this test that I did horrible on....after that it was never the same. It was just a slow spiral down towards hell. ANd this week is finals for me, so last 2 finals will determine if I pass or fail the class. The pressure is just KILLING me right now. I have never felt so helpless in my Life. And the worst part about that is, I have no one to study with....no one to go to help for. But I have to find a way to pass those classes...I don't know how I'm gonna do it.
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