[Sunnybayes]

Hello vir_maha, I can see that you are motivated to improve.

1.) What kinds of personal development books have you read?
I mean, if you have not read anything, then its cool. We could give you advice on what to point you to. What kinds of ideas do you have you come across?

2.) I could off you some advice, but it might sound strange, or too simple to be true, and you might not believe it, and how would I know that you'd try to follow it?

3.) Realize that this is going to take some time to get over. Maybe like a month or 4, but I can see that you are motivated to change this.

4.) Realize that you can control your thought, and once you advance enough, that you can even not have any thoughts at all if you like (at least not verbal ones).

5.) Before I offer some advice, would you be willing to start a progress thread here or in the personal effectiveness forum so that we can see if things are working any better? I've made my own and some other people have posted their own, and we are helping each other to advance and make progress, so I'd encourage you to join us, if you are motivated enough, and it seems like you are.