Hello!
Welcome to the forums
Anyway, you said you used anti-anxiety medicines to soothe the problem but they didn't work too well? Did you use counselling in conjunction with that?
Also, I do not think your problem is strange, so you are not alone

. A lot of people who suffered badly in their teen years don't always come out right as ray. I know of one person like that and in my experience with her, it did take her a few years to cope and finally let go of her anxieties and fears.
You also said you have worry about your emotional and personality problems 24/7. As you said yourself, it's a not a very happy and healthy way to live. So what exactly are these problems? If you share some more detail, I'm pretty sure we forumers can help you in some way.