I agree with all the wonderful advice above but I would like to voice my concern over the pills you are taking. You are experiencing emotional pain. Taking pills alters things, changes the way you are able to feel. I strongly feel that the pain is there for a reason, and you must find the reason and work to resolve it. I strongly believe that taking pills which alter your perception of your own feelings get in the way of this process.
I am not a doctor and my advice may not be valid, but I would never add a chemical to my body to deal with emotional pain. I would never take anything without understanding what it is, what it's affects are, and why the prescriber thinks it is necessary for me to take it.
I understand that your pain is very real, I was abused for three miserable years and my abuser continued to affect my life for a further 2 years afterwards. I dealt with my pain with the help of my family and friends and with the strength of my spirit. I believe that we all have that strength, and I worry that taking medication may prevent us from realising the strengths that we carry, that are necessary for our recovery.
I wish you all the best on your journey and I hope you are able to get through this and find the wonderful life that you are meant to grow into. I would urge you to reconsider the pills, or at least find out what they are and what they are doing to you.
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