Hi InJoy thanks for replying actually what you have said has made me think perhaps my thoughts feelings put in words might connect with some people and give them hope if there in a similar situation, or may be give them some inspiration to do the same. To me in a way it feels exciting in one way but a bit scary in another way, I think the first thing I'll do is build a tardis in my back garden cue (Dr Who music) and see that my future is there bright and rosy.
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One thing that has come out of this It has given me a lot of time to think about things and Iv'e been reading a lot and learnt a lot about myself I need to get in a more positive frame of mind I tend to live in the past a bit and it's time to let go of it.
Starting this thread was a good idea it's been a interesting read and thanks again for all those who replied.