Originally Posted by rekcuF
Or do darkworkers suddenly start caring about other people when they've reached a certain level? Based on my experience its almost impossible to have this kind of shift all of a sudden. But I'm not polarized in any direction yet so maybe I'm wrong.
Although this is the first time I have heard the use of this terminology, I am familiar with darkworking, and my sudden shift occurred when my father died in 2006. I knelt down by his body and touched the cool hard flesh on his forehead before the funeral home came to collect him and I recited the "Our Father" (which apparently is traditionally called the Lord's Prayer, but I have never called it such even during my darkest preoccupations). I had attended Catholic school until I was 13 and had been fully educated on Catholic catechism. However, was the first time I ever recited the prayer and felt it fully in my whole being. This began a cascade of events that pushed me irrevocably away from that which I had chosen and taught me to accept that which I feared.
Perhaps that was his dying wish; I know that in life my choices from darkness caused him immense suffering. Whatever caused this sudden shift, I fought against it tooth and nail, but for whatever reason, I have been irrevocably drawn towards this very foreign path.
I am still in the process of transition and suffer as homo duplex.