[Benny2]

I know depression well.

Abusive relationships are terrible, and do much character demage to the victim and the abuser.

She was probably abusive herself and is trapped in the cycle of abuse.

It is not your fault that you were a victim.
It is normal to have affection for your abuser because they don't abuse the victims 24/7.

She loved at times as well.

It is this hot and cold running water that makes for the most truama I was informed.


They did a study. They took a dog and with one hand the stroke and petted the dog.

With the other hand the hit the dog hard with a stick.

They kept this up. Eventually the dog turned on himself and bit itself.


Get the point, it is easy to despise an abusers if all did was to inflict pain but is not usually the case. They have at least some good movements.

Carefully consider your options. Realizing that their are billions of people on this plant is a good thing to keep in the fore front of your mind. This abuser is but one person. You social circles are but a few. Your job is important but there are other places to work.

Give yourself a break and destroy those intangible boarders that you have self talked into tangible existence.

The are two types of reality, there is the perceived reality that we construct for ourselves and their is actual reality or the truth.

Perceived reality is that you cannot make new friends, cannot change jobs, cannot heal from your depression. Where as actual reality is the opposite.

I can and am going to make new friends.
I can heal from my depression.
I can have a rich and mutually beneficial relationship.

Got it!

I must warn you that the chose is yours. I am not telling you what to do just informing you that you have options.

Many recovered addicts relapse because the they do not change their social circles.