Originally Posted by invisiblehouses
Now...if the polarity chooses you, here's my major hangup: does being a darkworker necessarily entail being a selfish jerkass? Do I have to act like Gene Simmons? Do I have to start voting a certain way? Can you be a darkworker and still be polite, kind and loving towards others?
Being a darkworker means honoring yourself. If acting polite and loving is the sincerest expression of who you are you couldn't be a good darkworker by doing otherwise.
If you choose the polarity, how does one make the shift to lightworker? Do you sit yourself in a corner and say, "You're going to get out there and perform generous acts, and you're going to do it until you damn well like it"?
Polarizing is like pulling teeth when you begin. You gradually shift your disposition through thought, energy, and action.
So you're partly right, getting out there and helping people would help push you in the right direction but if it's all you did you'd eventually think, "this is stupid" and hang it up. I imagine you would want to be as happy and excited as you could be to help other people. You'd probably wanna take time out of your day just to generate those feelings and bask in them until they started flowing automatically.
When I chose darkworking that's essentially what I did. I placed the focus on myself as often as I was able and I conjured the energy to back it. I read up on objectivism, I searched for a darkworker's perspective on popular topics like the LOA, and so on. I knew it was part of me when someone wrote a blog post saying that eating meat was wrong and my gut reaction was, "so?" That's significant because it meant that I no longer felt an inclination to honor the constructs and limitations others have placed upon themselves. The question isn't, "is that right or wrong?" it's "what will I do?" My heart is my guide and I have no commitment to act unless it moves me.