This article makes me wonder: do you consciously choose to be a light- or darkworker, or do we each have a natural polarity within which we will achieve the best results (at least until that point where we must integrate the other)?
I ask this because I've told myself for years that I'm a lightworker. Okay, I didn't use the word "lightworker" because I only heard that term here about a year ago, but I was basically convinced that I was a generous, giving person whose main concern was for others.
However, I'm starting to wonder if perhaps I've been deluding myself, due to a (limiting?) belief that light=good and dark=bad. My ability to create my life as I'd like to experience it (power) has mostly hovered on the low end of the spectrum. Is this because I'm telling myself I should operate from one polarity, when my natural state is the other?
I'll admit it: my energy tends to flow towards myself. I give lip service to the idea of helping others, but the action side of the equation has always tended to not amount to much--I've been a light worker more than a lightworker. "What's in it for me?" is a question that crosses my mind more often than I like to admit.
Now...if the polarity chooses you, here's my major hangup: does being a darkworker necessarily entail being a selfish jerkass? Do I have to act like Gene Simmons? Do I have to start voting a certain way? Can you be a darkworker and still be polite, kind and loving towards others?
If you choose the polarity, how does one make the shift to lightworker? Do you sit yourself in a corner and say, "You're going to get out there and perform generous acts, and you're going to do it until you damn well like it"?