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learningtogrow · 05-05-2007, 09:01 PM

I appreciate everyone playing the role of my doubts and fears. I thought I had enough of them on my own but apparently, there's more to be had:-).

Soooo, I ask you what exactly is it that I'm supposed to be afraid of?
Also, thanks for the vote of confidence with the mitigated results comment. Just when I thought I was getting somewhere too.

I'm kidding of course (sort of). I guess I thought there might be someone out there who's taken a giant leap with out knowing what will happen and could actually support me and say the rewards of going through facing your fears are phenomenal and YOU WILL BE O.K. I mean I'm really tackling fear head on here. Isn't life about living in the present? Why should I continue to live a life in fear. O.k. so I go get a job that pays less than what I do now in something I'm passionate about. I work 40 hours a week for very little money (believe me I've looked into this option ad nauseum) and I still can't pay my bills. There has to be another way. I envision a life with out fear and it's filled with joy and confidence and safety and ultimately that has nothing to do with money. Even if I had a million dollars, I could still live in fear that it would disappear. Fear has me tightly wrapped at the moment and quite frankly, I'm ready to be over it. Even in college, I did my best work at the last moments. Apparently, unless given a deadline, I just sort of meander not really dealing with issues.

I did appreciate Shamou's advice about living in the moment and that's what I'm gonna do for now. It's my goal and today, I'm doing a lot better with it. I actually asked myself today "if I can't bust through fear with this situation, what's it gonna take? Is there going to have to be something even more drastic that occurs. We'll see what happens. I've been visualizing success for a long time now. Do you really think that if I really can tackle the fear and truly live in the moment, and I've been visualizing success for awhile, that I'll be out on the street? Doesn't that go against everything LOA, Steve, Subjective Reality, metaphysics, and on and on that we're all professing to believe?

I so greatly appreciate everyones input and helping me through all of this. Truly!

05-05-2007, 09:01 PM	#16 (permalink)
learningtogrow Member Join Date: Feb 2007 Posts: 50	I appreciate everyone playing the role of my doubts and fears. I thought I had enough of them on my own but apparently, there's more to be had:-). Soooo, I ask you what exactly is it that I'm supposed to be afraid of? Also, thanks for the vote of confidence with the mitigated results comment. Just when I thought I was getting somewhere too. I'm kidding of course (sort of). I guess I thought there might be someone out there who's taken a giant leap with out knowing what will happen and could actually support me and say the rewards of going through facing your fears are phenomenal and YOU WILL BE O.K. I mean I'm really tackling fear head on here. Isn't life about living in the present? Why should I continue to live a life in fear. O.k. so I go get a job that pays less than what I do now in something I'm passionate about. I work 40 hours a week for very little money (believe me I've looked into this option ad nauseum) and I still can't pay my bills. There has to be another way. I envision a life with out fear and it's filled with joy and confidence and safety and ultimately that has nothing to do with money. Even if I had a million dollars, I could still live in fear that it would disappear. Fear has me tightly wrapped at the moment and quite frankly, I'm ready to be over it. Even in college, I did my best work at the last moments. Apparently, unless given a deadline, I just sort of meander not really dealing with issues. I did appreciate Shamou's advice about living in the moment and that's what I'm gonna do for now. It's my goal and today, I'm doing a lot better with it. I actually asked myself today "if I can't bust through fear with this situation, what's it gonna take? Is there going to have to be something even more drastic that occurs. We'll see what happens. I've been visualizing success for a long time now. Do you really think that if I really can tackle the fear and truly live in the moment, and I've been visualizing success for awhile, that I'll be out on the street? Doesn't that go against everything LOA, Steve, Subjective Reality, metaphysics, and on and on that we're all professing to believe? I so greatly appreciate everyones input and helping me through all of this. Truly!