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Originally Posted by butterflyeffect  I already did that!!! I did that letting go exersize and I told 20 different strangers why I was grateful for my Ed. I did as part of the hospital program.
2 steps ahead of you there. 
I can see your point but I'm not sure how to use it. I can see that the Ed has helped me enormously to grow and develop as a human being. Its taught me about myself and given me great strength and empathy. Its taught me my own strength and values and allowed me to become a concious human being, given me friends and a social network.
So in some ways my Ed has been a beautiful gift and I acknowledge that. Maybe thats what I need to do more of acknowledge the Ed thoughts and then move on.
I guess what i really want most at this point is to return to a low healthy weight and then pursue my modelling career. I don't mind the Ed so much as the weight gain and health problems. Hmmm food for thought. Thanks James.
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For some reason there is a movie quote that comes to mind when I read this....have you seen
Inception?
True inspiration is cathartic. We want him to have a positive emotional experience to all of this.--
Cobb, Inception
Let me ask you (and this is just me being curious)....does a modelling career really reach down inside of you and give you the goosebumps? Does it inspire you?
How about the excercise you did through the program? Was it an inspiring experience to tell those people about the positive parts of your ED?