Hello Blacko, how are you?
Are you afraid of commitment and possible failure? It sort of seems that way from the way you just keep jumping from one thing to another. I don't think we can intellectually 'arrive' at our passions. We can make a list of things we like and weigh the pros and cons of each possibility to make an educated guess on what will work. But ulimately, I think 'passion' is something that grows within us. IN my first year of university, I only had a vague idea that I liked sociology. My passion for sociology only grew once I took 4 years of undergraduate work in that field. In order to find (or is 'create' a better word?) your passion, I think you would have to finally choose one possible career goal and make the commitment to follow through with it. IT is the attitude we take that really determines whether or not the choices we make will be successful or a failure. Otherwise our interests will remain as superficial interests.
Having said that, there is nothing wrong with finding a job in order to make expenses until you have found something that your are ready to make a commitment for.