| | Taking Responsibility
I am trying to take responsibility and organise my life so that its managable.
In hospital that was significantly easier, it only involved choosing to comply with the program. While that was challenging, it pales in comparision to mimicking the same structure at home.
So I am choosing to do all the homework thats given to me by the program. Suprisingly, actively complying is alot of work, there is alot involved in following my meal plan and recording my activities and slip ups.
I have also started unpacking all my things from the hospital. Previously, I would have dragged that process out but this time I have just knucked down and done it. I am also in the process of cleaning out all the excess junk from my room. It feels as though my room is always cluttered no matter how many times I clear it out.
I am making a concious effort to be assertive and upfront with my thoughts and feelings. I am finding it very difficult. I may smile and say everything is fine when underneath I am furious with a person. I will deny it and then go and have a self soothing binge and tell someone else how much I hate them behind their backs. Its not productive or fair so I am trying to change that.