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Originally Posted by AdamUK  For a long time ive had this nagging feeling inside my chest and the other night when i confronted this feeling, the words which came were "im gay". To be honest i never wanted to be gay and i always denied and rejected any gay thoughts i have had.
Im slowly accepting and feeling better for it. But also confused to what i should do next and what my sexual orientation is now. Im in a long term relationship with a girl who i adore and love, she does know all this (i cant keep secrets from her!) she got hurt but accepted thats it part of me. I think im Bi-sexual. But i wont know for sure until i explore the other side of me.
Anyone else have lingering thoughts of their sexuality on their voyage for self discovery?. |
I had that experience about a year ago, and for a while it was a nightmare. Discovering I was gay was one thing, because I had to struggle to be honest with myself in the face of something that terrified me. But the more I came to terms with it, the less I cared, and by now I am ridiculously comfortable with it. Since then I have tried never to repress an attraction, however strange it seems to me, because after all, it is only a thought. Thoughts can only hurt you if you refuse to think them--that's what I decided a year ago and it's what I'm still trying to practice (with more difficulty than I ever expected) across the board.