I just got done hanging with my best friend CS. I had a great time with him as always, and I hope that I was able to impart some of my learnings to him and help him grow into his own in any way. I see the importance of having someone to learn from who's "been there already". We had a great time and talked about some important stuff.
Today, I had my Atlanta Symphony Orchestra Chorus auditions. Now, I COMPLETELY owned the theory part of this, along with my solo, and the pitches that they wanted me to come up with. However, when it came to the sightreading, I was COMPLETELY thrown off mainly because I had no clue where I was going. I looked at it and there were 3 sharps. I was like..."What the **** is this key???" and I could NOT figure it out for the life of me. Lo and behold, it was the key of A, but actually F# minor.
You know, I kinda bombed the sightreading, but this was actually something that was TRULY out of my control. Yeah, I could've practiced key signatures a little bit more, but the key of A is my absolute weak-spot. In addition, I've never really seen a piece in the key of A, so I had no choral reference. I was lost, but, I tried my best...
I think that the auditioner loved my rolled R's. It was a good time.
Afterwards, I went to Atlantic Station just to see where I'd be living. In fact, I remember that I was driving and I saw the entire skyline of Atlanta and I just completely started smiling because I knew that this would be where I would be. So when I got to Atlantic Station, it was actually a lot less lively than I had in my mind, BUT, it was exactly the way that I saw it. I got to see the apartment lofts, and the only thing that I was disappointed about the entirety of Atlantic Station is the lack of parking. It's actually REALLY confusing to navigate, the parking deck is KINDA far away, but everything worked, so, yeah...
It's a really chic place in the middle of everything, and on top of that, I love the idea of living in the city. The nightclubs are LITERALLY just 10 minutes away. I'm sure that this place will be even more lively as time goes on and colleges start getting in session. There weren't TOO many good looking chicks here, I only saw like 4, but it was also Sunday at 6 PM...
The greatest thing about this was this. "Even though I'm a social butterfly, the entire idea of being in this big city all by myself even puts a little bit of fear into my wings". Essentially, if I were to do this, I'd be ALL on my own...I would have to be 100% responsible for EVERYTHING that I do with my life. I'd HAVE to manage my health, finances, and everything. I would have to be start building a social circle from scratch pretty much....but I've done it once, so I know that I'd be able to do it again. I'm a little intimidated by the fact of everything.
However, I know that in fear...lies nimbus. I'd really take on something that is challenging to me and I'd grow in the process...either we're growing or we're dying. This would DEFINITELY be a growing experience for me. I'd SERIOUSLY have to think on my own...without the outside help of other people. I'd have to stand up for myself, get things done for me, and just really take FULL responsibility for myself and my life.
Am I "ready" for it? Honestly, no.
Am I going to do it? Honestly, *devlish grin* yes. This is going to be one of the greatest experiences of my life, and I'm going to make it happen. The big city is a cold place...that's what it feels like. It scares me a bit, there are people I don't know everywhere, there are cars flying by everywhere, it's a COMPLETELY different culture than what I'm used to, and there are completely different ways of getting things than those that I'm used to...this sounds like it's EXACTLY made for me.
I'm sure I'm going to make countless friends in the process, and I'm going to make sure that I enjoy every single bit of life in the meanwhile. There is no final destination on this adventure...this is the adventure of a lifetime. In addition, this is PREPARATION for me moving to the bigger cities on my own...in addition to learning new languages, becoming a world traveler, and conducting myself as a man and living on my own.
This is happening, and I'm going to make it happen because I want to live here