[thinktank]

Hello...

I am a college going student...and I really do suffer from shyness. I
seem to be so shy that I cant go out and talk to my immediate
neighbors. Everything seems to be in a mess. I have been trying to
improve from the first year, yet I feel I am going further down. I had
so many dreams that I would accomplish after joining my dream college,
yet I did nothing. I just wasted my entire time mindlessly watching
movies. Its not that I want to, but that watching movies is sort of a
escape mechanism for me. Whenever I fail to do something, I start
watching movies to make myself forget about the bad things, yet they
never seem to improve. My grades have gone down, and I really don't
know what to do. I had talked to a therapist one year back. When I was
in therapy, I was doing so well, yet when I stopped, I just slumped
back to my own self.

Over the years I have been seeing a pattern though. I feel the real
culprit in my case in always a tv or a computer. I remember as a child
how when my parents forcefully removed our television, I used to do so
well, yet when I had access to our television, I was a disaster. I
think the same thing is happening to me yet again. The problem is that
even though I have to work a lot on my computer as soon as I have any
access to it I get addicted to it, and start doing the same things I
hate so much.

Does seeing too much movies really impair brain functioning? Nowadays
I dont seem to be able to think that well. I am such a sham.