Take care Aspiring
It's a very painful place to be where you are right now. I won't give you all those b****y homilies like "Time is a great healer" and all that stuff LOL!! But it really is........
I don't know if you are aware of Abraham but this is what they say:
It's ever so much more satisfying to get into a blissful place and attract a blissful person and live blissfully hereafter than to be in a negative place and attract a negative partner and then try to get happy from that negative place.
If you have the time and the inclination go visit:
Abraham-Hicks
Barb