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Originally Posted by st33med  I meant on skype. You can find me on skype by looking up my forum nick (st33med). |
I will have to do some work overcoming my social anxiety. I decided to go look you up on skype asap. But then I thought I would feel so sick with anxiety on a video chat. But then I thought, imagine it's just like talking to someone I know well like my bf, I'd just be like "hey! what you been up to?" etc lol
I used to go on webcam sometimes and I would be so perfectionistic about how I looked I would constantly look at the video feed of my self to make sure I looked good lol and would sit & pose in just the right position to make my self look the best. Wierd I know! I think I was terrified of looking "ugly"
So it's probably actually easier to talk to someone in real life than on a video chat, cause on a video chat I can see what I look like to the other person and usually, if I think I look ugly it makes me feel awful and like an "ugly person"
Maybe there is really something wrong with my perception of my self. Seeing other people as attractive but often seeing my self as ugly. I don't know.