negate7o4 I know you had an experience but you must not let that drive you to thinking anything that offers hope to someone is a delusion. The world is not a dark, horrible place of dying people all th etime. That is the wrong way to see things. I imagine you must think I am being stupid, talking like I understand you, I do understand on a level you have shut off from your perception by your own hatred and resentment. Don't be angry with us. Yoru problem is within yourself, and in you alone.