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Originally Posted by noitcefrep  I wonder how people I know would react to my posts here. I think they'd look at me differently. Judge me more harshly, trust me less often.
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That's an f'ed up attitude to be sure. Plus it's totally backwards from what would actually happen.
If you stopped with privacy crap, you'd drop all pretense of hiding stuff that's obvious to people anyway. You'd stop substituting fake connections for real ones. You'd finally have some real relationships enter your life, not the fake crap you mistaken for friendship.
And you'd stop identifying so much with your past junk, freeing up your power to create.
The harsh judgment you levy on yourself every day for being fake is way worse than anything external critics could do to you when you stop faking it.
All you're doing is keeping love and connection away, trying in vain to protect that vulnerable inner child who just wants to be loved.
This week I'm hanging out with a bunch of very successful friends in Santa Fe. They know my past. They know I used to be a thief. They know I went bankrupt, separated from Erin, have a new g/f and that I'm into D/s.
They hug me and accept just the same... moreso in fact because they know I won't judge them for any of the crap they've been through.
If you pretend to be someone you're not, I guarantee the other people in your life are doing the same. You're a shell interacting with shells.
Shell games are pointless.