Originally Posted by butterflyeffect
I am just about to head back into hospital. Its a strange feeling because I haven't been there in a few years.
I am not really nervous because I know the routine well. There is no resistance to the process either, I feel oddly removed. I know I need help so I am going in willingingly, it is my choice, I will work with the team and come out healthier.
Why I am going back? In my posts I seem to be doing really well? And I am. I am progressing and changing on a mental level but physically I am still stuck in old patterns and struggling. I have tried to break the patterns in the past and never succeeded in doing it by myself. So it will be a very short admission, a couple of weeks max. Break the cycle, allow me to focus on following a meal plan, let my body chemistry normalise and come out and maintain it.
As for my family, they seem rather removed from the process as well. There won't be the constant phone calls and teary visits as I struggle. This time its going to go well. They won't even need to visit. I guess I have finally become independant. Lol and its nice.
Does this mean we went see you for a few weeks?
If so, then I'll miss you. Good luck with your treatment, though. Remember your last PM to me and think about what you realized.