[butterflyeffect]

I was getting dressed to go out and doing my usual routine of trying on different dresses and internally hating my body for not being thin enough.

Then it hit me, its just a projection. My bodies not the problem. I am. I am the one who needs to heal on a soul level, on mind level and then on a body level. My body is a wonderful gift but my hate for it is really just a way of expressing anxiety about myself.

Am I smart enough?
Am I achieving my goals?
Am I progressing?

Rather than answer those questions, I get tied up in side issues like food and weight and therefore gain weight instead. So I am now going to focus on the core issues and recognise when Im projecting and shift my awareness back to the present moment.