Hey aspiring, I just wanted to say that I think you have handled this painful time with incredible grace. You have been brave, kept your head held high even there I'm sure there there have been moments of despair when you felt broken.
I'm not psychic nor do I have any supernatural gifts (apart from my penchant of matching shoes and socks that are
impossibly wrong for each other) but I read in your words a certain...light. You shine.
Take care of yourself