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I don't know if anyone is still checking in on this thread, but I just wanted to update it. He called me last night and we talked for probably 10-15 minutes. I tried to remember my wish to be a friend, so I spoke to him nicely and he asked me a little about my work and our pets, etc. I talked to him about his job and we both agreed things are hard right now. He said he missed me and I replied in kind. He asked if he could come see the pets this weekend and I agreed. He said he would try to get his stuff from my house by the end of the month. I didn't venture into any quesitons about what happened to end our relationship, merely took the converstation for what it was. I felt good to have spoken to him without anger in my head. I felt that I am letting go of the need to know what happened. I know enough to know this is the right course, any more information will only serve to hurt me more. Now we must move on to the next chapter. I have hope that we can be at least friends in some sense, letting the hard feelings die though probably not great friends who spend tons of time together unless some things change.

Also, he asked to borrow some money until he gets paid and even though it was very hard I told him that I could not. It was painful becuase I know he is struggling right now, but his struggles are of his own making.

I think that's about it. Thanks for reading.