You are right, Lychee. He really expected that I would continue to do anything and everything for him though he wanted to be free. I am glad I said what I did, becuase I think it woke him up a little that I wasn't just sitting here hoping he'd come back. I do miss him and wish we could be together, but I know what I will and will not accept in a relationship and I want to be true to that. So, while I do still love him, we cannot be partners in the romantic sense. I do still care, and would do what I could to be a listening ear or help him so far as it doesn't compromise my standards. I have not heard from him since then, and I have struggled, but been SUCCESSFUL in not calling him. Tonight I will begin to pack his stuff in boxes and reclaim my space for the next step in my journey. I am trying to help myself so that I can be whole. And if at some point in the future we should come back together or forge a friendship, I will be in the right frame of mind for it. I miss him greatly and still have questions left unanswered, but I am trying. Thanks for your response!
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