I initially thought I’d fall somewhere between joy and peace as I tend to be a very joyful/playful person, while at the same time being generally unshakable, but their descriptions sound much more grand than I would usually lay claim to as a full time state. A friend last weekend described my demeanor as very calm with a certain edgy intensity he’s never seen before. Everyone else who knows me personally says about the same thing.
I’ve also been branded with the nickname of “smiley” over the years, as I often can’t help but smile upon seeing people or even when meditating. In looking at my behavior under pressure, my most common reaction to falling, dropping something, or even getting hit is to laugh spontaneously. When I was learning to walk as a child, each time I fell I laughed and got back up. I don’t really worry much about things as something always comes up and the situation practically solves itself, or it simply stops being an issue. I just open up my receptive channels more.
With the idea of having a place in multiple levels as Steve discussed, I see myself with strong highlights of joy and peace, with a baseline of neutrality so far as having nothing to prove. Several years ago I had a strong activist period, with a strong focus on time management, goal setting and doing whatever I could to help improve things. Around age 16 I felt a very strong purpose, and had I taken this survey then I'd have felt myself largely on the levels of reason and love with still strong connotations of joy and peace.
Now it seems that the world practically improves itself of its own accord, and I needn't wear myself too thin in most instances for change to occur. It's funny though, at the time I was most active, it seemed the more I did the more energy I had, and the more I could do. I may just be experiencing a bit of downtime right now. On occasions when worthy causes where I feel able to make a real difference come up I’m happy to step in, but until then I’ll be sipping some hot chocolate or massaging a friend
