[butterflyeffect]

I disagree. Just because you choose to heal doesn't mean you have to heal from something. Healing is unconditionally loving yourself.

Oh and I can tell yo why your friend is mad at you. To me her response makes sense on an innate level. But im not sure how to explain it to you.

One of my main memories of hosptial (their blurring together lately) is a group therapy session. I was crying at that point, really really upset. As part of the group homework, the doctor had made everyone choose a name out of a hat and tell the person we received two ways in which they were sabotaging their recovery. Confronting for all involved. Anyway, I was told that I was trying to maintain too much rigid control and ignoring my body/intuition. My response was "I can't trust my body. I've spent so long destroying it, it won't know whats normal or healthy anymore." The doctor then asked if anyone else felt the same way? Every other girl raised her hand and it was a tense atmosphere. Then he asked us to believe him and try and trust our bodies because it would take time but the damage could be healed. There was so much fear there, so much angst and tears. I genuinely thought I had permantly destroyed my body and for someone who still thinks that to hear "Your body is fine, its perfect the way it is. It doesn't need to heal" is the worst kind of kick in the guts. You have spent all this time and energy chasing an illusion and wrecked your body in the process and its just written off with some fake speil. If you had said that to me at the time, my response wouldn't have been kind and caring either, rather hurt and angry.

Im sure you didn't mean it in a nasty way, but thats my understanding of how it would have been interpreted. How I would have seen it.