[Chemgirl]

Hi. Thanks to everyone that has posted here, it has helped me because last week I found out my bf had been looking at girls in their underwear on the net. The kind of thing you see in fhm. I took it really badly, I was devastated because he always said 'I don't need to look at other girls, you are the only one for me' and I felt it was all a lie.

We talked about it because I knew I couldn't forget what I had seen and he was really understanding of how I felt. I was scared he would just say 'I'm a man and it's natural' but he really knew how betrayed I felt. We are trying to work things out and since I confronted him he his trying so hard to earn my trust.

My problem at the moment is I can't quite let go. I can't be naked in front of him at the moment because I feel inadequate compared to the pictures I saw, and we used to be naked every moment we were home. I still wonder if he thinks of them when he kisses me and we have sex, even though he said he never did before I had to ask. I know I am very insecure about myself, especially my looks and I have really low self esteem, which just got lower. I know it's mostly about how bad I feel about myself - if I had better self worth and less doubts about how someone like him could love me I would be able to forget it easier.

Does anyone have some advice, I'm scared I will never heal and I will always compare myself to the pictures I saw and feel I'm not enough for him. Thanks for taking the time to read this.