| | Mindfulness Group
Today I joined a mindfulness and meditation group run by my doctor specifically to learn how to manage emotions. Running once a week for an hour and a half the focus of the group is to understand the nature of our thoughts and how to avoid engaging in thoughts that trigger unwanted patterns.
For me thoughts that trigger unhealthy patterns, are to do with weight. If I get caught up in thoughts of thinness then my world shrinks to my eating disorder and how I need to lose weight or die. Life isn't worth living fat. But if I avoid engaging in those thoughts ironicaly Im slimmer, healthier and making progress to my goals. Whaddya know, the therapist is on to something!!
As part of the wellness journey I have removed all the thinspiration from my room, including pictures of thin people, models and posters with low weights on them. I have replaced them with pictures of healthy foods, healthy models, individuals with fantastic fashion and charisma. Alot of pro ana websites claim inner beauties a lie, but their viewing a 3D world through a 2D lens. Its important to look after your body and soul and develop yourself from the inside out. Your body can only be as good as the fuel it runs on, including the time you take to nourish your soul. So I am taking that time to feed my mind, enjoy the possibilities before me and most of all be grateful for all the lessons I've learnt so far.