I'd like to believe that my true self cannot be destroyed because the idea of non-existence is terribly frightening to me. I've considered the possibility that there is no afterlife, but I cannot accept that idea because it is the worst thing I can imagine.
But, believing that I am eternal does not give me comfort either because I have difficulty accepting anything without at least some kind of evidence or prior experience that would suggest it.
There are too many questions that cannot be answered.
For example, if I am eternal, then in what medium, if any, does my eternal being exist? Or is it that everything exists within my eternal being? How is it that it cannot be destroyed? How is it that it could survive the death of the universe?
What happens when every point of consciousness becomes fully evolved? Is it game over? Is there nothing left that needs to be done? Is it just blissful existence for eternity? That actually sounds kind of boring and unfulfilling. Or, does everything get reset back to a lesser evolved consciousness so the game of raising consciousness can continue on forever?
Am I supposed to just accept it on blind faith that I am eternal and not think about how that might be? I don't like that idea, because that is what Christianity told me to do, which led me to have a terrible misunderstanding of reality.