Oh I'm glad you took that well...*hugs to you*
Yeah, I know what you mean, really. I've been the same for most of my life and read about these things around your age as well, so I do understand. You are learning to stand up for yourself in this world, and that's a really important thing for survival. I still haven't mastered it, but I'm getting better.
I hope you didn't feel like I was taking sides or picking on you...I really can see that you are doing your best to take back your sense of self and self-respect...and I applaud you for it...it's not easy at all, especially when you've recieved all this horrible treatment from those who are supposed to treat you the best out of anyone and you are supposed to be able to trust.
If you can see that this is something that has been passed down through generations of not just your family, but pretty much everyone's family, then it makes it easier to understand where it comes from and that they really don't know what damage they are doing...unless they do that is...some do and they keep doing it...but most don't, they are just unconscious and in denial.
It doesn't make it ok at all, but it makes it understandable.
You'll get your barings someday soon beautiful. I've just realised how much it feels like I am a big sister to you...I hope that's o.k with you?
It takes time for all of us.
Noone is born knowing how to deal with every situation perfectly...it's mostly trial and error. That's what's good about getting older, the improvement and refinement which comes with our experiences. You're just starting out, and I'm sure you will make more mistakes and learn from them...hopefully, since mistakes allow us to learn so much.