Originally Posted by Theo77
Helping other people along the way, is an important part of it, making a positive impact on the world is an important part of it.
But in the end its my dream, and the pursuit of it is being directed by me, so is it self centered?
This is mincing words.
"If someone desires to be selfless, then they aren't actually selfless since it is their desire and is therefore a selfish desire." No. That is mincing words.
Everything emantes from the self, but you can't overcomplicate the English language by changing definitions. Humans define people who enjoy helping others as "selfless"
and humans who enjoy helping themselves at others expense as "selfish". These are the definitions we use when we speak of these things. If you change these definitions just because of the fact that "everything emantes from the self" you lose their meaning and then everything you've ever heard about selfishness/selflessness loses it's meaning.
Desiring to help others because it makes you feel fulfilled is
true selflessness. That feelng of fulfillment is not a low level feeling. It is high level. You can feel that fulfillment despite any other suffering in this world - you can be in terrible pain but still know that helping others is what you want, because the self radiates supreme.
This is why i've always been so concerned with people who say they are darkworkers, because in the same breath they'll say they like helping people. In the process of polarization to darkwork, the challenge is removing that care for others and refocusing it to yourself. I'm not sure if they realise that this will happen, and I'm not sure if they actually want this to happen. In the process of polarizing towards lightwork, the challenge is refocusing your excessive selfish desires (like materialism and social status) towards others. As you polarize, you care less and less about losing these things because in their place you gain ultimate satisfaction by re-uniting with your own true nature as a giving being. Mother Teresa did not suffer for her choice, she followed her bliss, but to call her selfish is to degrade the meaning of the language.
So as I polarize to the light I naturally desire fewer possessions and want to contribute more of my productive capacity to the world. As I polarized to the dark (which is something I put a serious effort into a few years ago) I naturally came to care less about helping others and I naturally felt ok with refocusing all of that energy on my own personal profit, power, freedom and happiness.
The difference with lightwork is that when I suffer I feel OK about it, because there is a deeper fulfillment, and I just slowly work to overcome that suffering. Whereas as a darkworker when I suffered the solution was always to separate more, take more power, take more control, and using those faculties remove the suffering. A darkworker has to depend on his own skills to protect himself, whereas a lightworker can call on the universe to help him serve and have faith that the pain will pass. Separation versus unity.