I think there could possibly be life after death and that possibly many people are
spiritually decieved and that possibly bad things can happen to them in the afterworld as a result of their choices while alive and on earth.
Possibly people who surrender their lives to the service of various deities end up being slaves in the after life. Wheras, free spirits, atheists agnostics, do not.
So I am kind of agnostic, but also in a sense vigilant towards spiritual things because from experience there can be traps associated with spiritual beliefs and deception going on.
Truthfully, though, I don't find atheists to be characterized by a white knuckled death grip on life for fear of ceasing to exist, to the point that they will do absolutely anything to survive even if it involves preying on others.
Like for example if you were to offer atheist the proposition of eternal life, if they were to be able to exist indefinately by killing and drinking the blood of children. Do you thin most atheists would say yes?
Personally I don't.
I think you can be an atheist and believe in things higher then your self. I think atheists can have a very high degree of personal integrity. Doesn't mean they all do. But I have met many with high ethical standards and tender attitudes towards others.
Humanists come to mind. Humanism is often a philosophy of atheists.
As far as chosing to polarize, for me signifigant changes have been happening to me by pursuing my dreams, simply for my own sake, because I want to experience all that life has to offer. I feel this is hedonistic, yet I do I want to make a contribution.
I feel that real harm can come to me by wasting my potential and thus wasting my life. If I were to do that I would not make a contribution not even to myself.