Thank you for your reply. I appreciate the meditations and practical advice. I will definately give it a try tonight before I go to bed. I get really really anxious at night actually so that will probably be a huge help.
I have done alot of group therapy over the years. Sometimes it was really really helpful and othertimes it just felt really negative and destructive, like Eating Disorder University. Learn how to be as sick as possible and divorce yourself from reality 101. The big factors for me were the people in the groups, were we all compatible and at similiar stages with a good therapist or not. I do think whether group therapy helps or not depends on the individual as well.
Glad to hear your following your intuition.
I think with EDs there is no simple answer but on the other hand it doesn't always take years to get better, some people report making massive progress in just a few months. I tend to feel for me it is going to take a long time because there is alot of complex medical problems that come into play as well. I think LOA is important though and one can do both. I have had alot of therapy in the past and it helped but I have also found the alternate therapy styles really helpful as well, like EFT, The Leftkoe Method, Samona Sound Therapy and accupuncture.
Its really interesting that you say you don't define yourself as having an ED. I wonder what I would feel like if I stopped defining myself like that. I notice in my writing and communications with people on a deeper level it always comes up. Like I am a package deal, me and my Eating disorder. I find it strange and maybe even scary to think about what it would be like to drop that label. So thats something I need to think about.