Again, cool that you were aware before you got further along. I am not sure you get how huge it is.
I was clinically depressed (rather had episodes/relapses) from the time I was in 4th grade (they did not think children could be clinical back then) until I was in my early 30's.
I have not relapsed back into it. I have touched the edge but never to go back. I now understand and embrace deep sadness and actually in an odd way find enjoyment during it. That, of course, is different than depression even non-clinical.
Saying this to let you know that if there is hope in extreme cases there is certainly hope with you.
Besides, you are a bit of a brighter person than I am. So, there is that. ;P
Grass on feet has been quite the therapy for me as of late. a few miles every weekend rules. Daily when I feel the fog.
I use to correct my thinking with CBT (still do when my brain is stubborn) but the last year I give myself permission to not listen to my thinking and get solely into sensory mode and practice constant mindfulness. Only doing what I am doing or being where I am. Hard to continue to slide down the slope when your mind does not run crazy.
The key for me is the meditation practice I established after a very dark spell. It helped rewire a few things.
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